No Words

I have been at a loss for words since the Newtown shootings.  What is there to say, really?  I mean life goes on. . . well for the rest of it. . . it has to.  But I’ve found it difficult to sit down and write about everyday life when such a tremendous national tragedy has taken place.  My heart is heavy, if not full out broken, but it is time to write again.  It is time to live and appreciate life, again.  So I will find the words today, not about the tragedy, because really there are none, but I will return to updating on our goings on.

Christmas Eve we burned candles in the shape of N.T. to honor and remember those that lost their lives in the tragedy.

Caught in the act!

Where to begin.  I guess with Chloe.  Where else (ha ha).  Anyway, she’s still that bright light that shines in my life, bringing me joy in ways I never expected.  Don’t get me wrong. . .she’s still the same challenge as always. . . climbing on tables, writing on walls and chairs, getting into EVERYTHING, but after a recent week with Chloe’s younger 2-year-old cousin, I was able to realize how far she’s come.  I’ve often thought of her at 4 as much like a 2-year-old, but after spending a whole week with a 2 year old, she really isn’t.  She isn’t really a 4-year-old either.  She’s just CHLOE.  And for now, I’m rejoicing in that.  Her latest thing?  Running around laughing hysterically.  I mean, how could you resist that?  Her “personality” is as strong as ever, but she seems to be happier with each passing day.  I’m not sure I thought that was possible.  Of course she is still stubborn and has her OWN opinion about how things are going to go (like the routine at school – she thinks SHE’S in charge!  haa haa), but there is this joy about her lately.  A laugh that cannot be resisted.  A smile that brightens even the darkest of days. 

There's that smile!

What else is going on with her, you wonder?  Well, we got new glasses.  They fit MUCH better but are a little less sturdy.  Specs 4 Us – made just for kiddos with Ds.  She looks stinkin’ adorable in them, if you ask me, BUT that doesn’t make her any more motivated to wear them.  At least with this pair however, she does fold them neatly up and puts them down instead of heave-hoeing them across the room.  Ah the small accomplishments.

The other kids are good.  Busy as usual.  Xander is turning 12 – the magical “I can sit in the front seat now 12!”  He feels like a big kid already.  He’s still busy with hockey and struggling in school, but we’re working on that.  Generally he’s doing well and in good spirits when he’s home.  And Sadie.  What to say about Sadie.  She’s still all girl.  Quickly lost interest in soccer.  We’re going to try lacrosse next.  She’s got a busy elaborate imagination that keeps her occupied for hours.  She’s doing GREAT in school both academically and socially.  She’s found a good fit so far with her teachers.

Chloe giving mommy and daddy hugs!

Stac and I are great.  We had a WONDERFUL holiday break surrounded by family.  It was truly a special time.  As much as my sister thought we’d be relieved to “have our house back” it just isn’t the same without them here! 

For someone who had “no words” I’ve run my mouth pretty well.  I have another post brewing, but I’ll save that for another day.  Hope everyone is well and that you’re all finding time to enjoy and appreciate each other.  Happy New Year to all.

Amy